I haven’t posted a blog in a while, and normally what i do post are just videos and not really anything about me or what i’m thinking, so i decided to write a blog post for once 
Recently, well it depends on your understanding of the word recent cause my recent in this case is the last year .. anyway im rambling lol .. recently i have thought alot of things through and tried to make sense of everything that has happened in my life. Before i used to do first and deal with whatever comes after. Then something my Nanny said to me has stayed in the back of my head ever since. She said Akil i can read you like a book, you can fool your Dad and possibly your Mum but i know what your thinking just by looking in your face. So me being young i said whatever Nan you don’t know anything i’m thinking so she said ok then just remember peoples faces tell stories, even if you try and trick the person looking at you by putting on a different face for a different emotion. Much like you reading this now i was overly confused lol. But at the time i was thinking i just want everyone to leave me alone so my facial expression normally would have been a frown and a ‘Don’t bother me’ look, but because i didn’t wanna make my Nan seem like she knew everything i smiled and looked around the room like i was interested in something. So she started laughing and laughing and walked into the kitchen and she said ‘Ishmwe you want me to leave you alone so i will’ …. i was so shocked but so ashamed at the same time. My Nan actually could tell what i was thinking by looking at my face, so myself and my Nan had a long chat and we came to the conclusion i wasn’t happy and whenever i wasn’t happy i would feel one emotion but my face would say another to cover it up (PRIDE). And ever since then whenever somethings bothered me i always catch myself trying to deceive people then i remember what my Nan said and i just do the most natural face to suit my mood or emotion. She told me that keeping things in would only make things worse and it’s always good to let everything out, so i guess this is what i’m doing now … my other half isn’t talking to me so i can’t tell her this story even tho she is looking over my shoulder and probably gonna look away lol but yeah .. i just thought i’d blog my thoughts on something and give you a littler story all in one
